Sleep Is the Ultimate Amplifier

Hello, friends!

I hope that life has been treating you well. I lowkey made a new friend today? Like, I was lurking in the planner section of Michaels (as you do), and this girl was like "How is it that all the things to organize your life just make my brain more chaotic?". I helped her to pick out a planner, we got to talking, and wound up spending a couple hours together. Now we're friends, which is absolutely wild.

In other news, this past week has been a nightmare as far as sleep is concerned. I have struggled to make myself sleep when I want to, and I have tended towards oversleeping when I can sleep. Also, my brain is apparently populated with anxiety nightmares that emerge when I ultimately get to sleep.

Still, I've had some quality time with both myself and my friends this week. I think that lack of sleep amplifies the highs and lows of my life. When things are going well, Sleep Deprived Lydia is like "This is fantastic! I've never felt this good before!". But, when things are going poorly, Sleep Deprived Lydia is just horrifically depressed and drowns their feelings in YouTube. And, no matter how things are going, Sleep Deprived Lydia doesn't really want to sleep.

Despite its ups and downs, this week has been alright, and I'm looking forward to tackling the next one.

Best wishes,

Lydia

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