Watching the Fear Away

Hello!

A few years ago, I started a new blog. I wanted to mature from the content I had written at 15, and write about Serious Topics. And then...I didn't really do anything with it.

However, I haven't been using social media lately, which has been great from my mental health, but has left me in need of An Outlet. So, here I am, trying again.

The past week has been my first week back from break. I'm taking a four-week course on James Baldwin's literature before I leave for my study abroad in Paris. If you ask me, I'll say that I'm looking forward to study abroad, but, in reality, I am caught between being scared out of my mind and in entire disbelief that I will be going on study abroad at all.

To cope, I have filled my spare time with films and television. I spent winter break binge-watching Brooklyn 99. My only previous exposure to Andy Samberg was watching The Lonely Island's "I Just Had Sex" video in incognito mode more times that I would like to admit at the age of 14. To fill the gap between finishing season 5 and the season 6 premiere, I watched (and rewatched) The Lonely Island's Popstar: Never Stop Never Stopping. They managed to parody the pop star documentary form while also creating lots of catchy songs. Here's one that you can't sing in polite company, and here's one that you can (if you're willing to put up with some confused looks).

Besides excessive media use, this week has featured me desperately trying to wrangle my uncooperative sleep schedule into submission, and plenty of me copying down angsty Baldwin quotes with the caption "same". It's been an okay week, I guess.

Best wishes,
Lydia

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